[Grateful as he is for Harry sending him on the path that landed Dorian here, Toby would choke the life from the man for doing this to his soulmate. Putting a fear in him that doesn't belong and can't be shaken loose.] There's every reason to fear that with mortals. They're so wrapped up in what they can get that they don't think beyond their immediate happiness. Those that can set is aside live lives that are filled with the kind of blissful, ignorant joy we'll never have, but they still live in that love and joy. We can have something deeper than that, if you're willing to try.
[He pushes the drink into Dorian's hands so he can gently tip the man's chin up to meet his eyes. Those goddamn beautiful eyes that no other can ever have. So deep and haunted, yet ever young and full of life. As he stares into them, he's certain Dorian's got no idea how much he has if he can see it with a single look into the man's eyes.]
Being scared of something has never stopped you from doing it before. You throw yourself recklessly into everything, but you won't even try with this. I know Harry's fingerprints are all over your life, but will you let him dictate the whole of it? Why do you want to give him such power over you long after he's dead? [A frown pulls at his lips.] I've met hundreds of couples who loved each other 'til death parted them, Dorian, who didn't push each other away or stop throwing themselves in one another's arms whenever they had the chance. God knows that death or some other pull apart may be what's coming for us, but we don't know that. We never can until it's on us. That's how our lives are. [It's how they'll always be.
He takes a slow breath and releases his boyfriend's face with a last brush of his thumb along that perfect, unblemished cheek.] There's everything to daydream about when we're this old. The things we want to share with each other that we didn't have the chance to on Earth. Gossip and use of mortals for entertainment whenever we're feeling bored. The years we can spend trying new things together and tackling all the mysteries you want to throw yourself into. I want all of that and everything else with you, the same I'll always want that, and I know that because I don't change nearly as much as you say I do. I certainly didn't while you were gone.
So we take this step, we do something for us that doesn't have to include anyone else, and we keep living the same unpredictable, reckless, and endlessly curious lives we always have. The only difference is a change in title. [He smiles lightly, chuckling at his next thought before he says it.] And me officially being a Gray.
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[He pushes the drink into Dorian's hands so he can gently tip the man's chin up to meet his eyes. Those goddamn beautiful eyes that no other can ever have. So deep and haunted, yet ever young and full of life. As he stares into them, he's certain Dorian's got no idea how much he has if he can see it with a single look into the man's eyes.]
Being scared of something has never stopped you from doing it before. You throw yourself recklessly into everything, but you won't even try with this. I know Harry's fingerprints are all over your life, but will you let him dictate the whole of it? Why do you want to give him such power over you long after he's dead? [A frown pulls at his lips.] I've met hundreds of couples who loved each other 'til death parted them, Dorian, who didn't push each other away or stop throwing themselves in one another's arms whenever they had the chance. God knows that death or some other pull apart may be what's coming for us, but we don't know that. We never can until it's on us. That's how our lives are. [It's how they'll always be.
He takes a slow breath and releases his boyfriend's face with a last brush of his thumb along that perfect, unblemished cheek.] There's everything to daydream about when we're this old. The things we want to share with each other that we didn't have the chance to on Earth. Gossip and use of mortals for entertainment whenever we're feeling bored. The years we can spend trying new things together and tackling all the mysteries you want to throw yourself into. I want all of that and everything else with you, the same I'll always want that, and I know that because I don't change nearly as much as you say I do. I certainly didn't while you were gone.
So we take this step, we do something for us that doesn't have to include anyone else, and we keep living the same unpredictable, reckless, and endlessly curious lives we always have. The only difference is a change in title. [He smiles lightly, chuckling at his next thought before he says it.] And me officially being a Gray.