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Dorian Gray (The Confessions of Dorian Gray) ([personal profile] mayfairmonster) wrote2030-02-11 08:43 pm
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"If you don’t know who this is, hang up now. If you do [A long-suffering sigh] why not leave a message?"


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mislay: (pic#11773392)

[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-12 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
That won't take long, [ he points out, eyes lowering just slightly as he watches dorian's mouth press against his skin. ] Even if this idea of yours isn't a very smart one, I'll do what I can. I've already decided it would be very easy to climb through any of these windows. Getting out would be even easier.

[ so that's nearly all of his planning for that. larus still doesn't approve of this stranger helping with something obviously important, but he won't bring it up again. not now. he's far more focused on the fact they're so close and it'll be hours before the sun goes down again. ]

What about the rest of the time? [ a curl of his mouth, somewhat sardonic. ] Should I just wait for you to come home?
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-12 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
I know how to keep busy. That isn't the problem.

[ or maybe it is, restless as always when he's stuck too long in one place. it's also why he'd slowly built up an extensive list of safe houses in the dusk, different areas to come and go from depending on where he was and what he'd been doing. he could have that here, though that means he'll certainly have to work for it. even harder since he'll rely on dorian for some things.

he isn't going to be seduced by sweet words, but he does close his eyes, his hand now smoothing down dorian's back. ]


You can believe I'm waiting for you if that's what you want. It's not like I have anywhere else to be. [ he pauses then, considering. ] I doubt I would want to be anywhere else either.

[ dorian can take that however he'd like. ]
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-12 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he's familiar with time passing as it always does: slowly, meticulously. there's more to keep him occupied there, that's true, and dorian already helps with that. it's not as if he couldn't spend time speaking to other people or meeting with them in this suite during the day as well, though that would come at a later date when he actually felt the need to invite anyone inside where he's living.

the tenderness that's reflected in the way larus returns the kiss is deep. ]


Every day as long as we're together? [ there's a note of amusement in his voice. ] I don't want to kill you.
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-12 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
No. I just wonder if you're overestimating yourself trying to impress me again.

[ it's the small things that stick with him, after all, and that's all he's really going to have after they're gone. larus runs his knuckles against the line of dorian's jaw before pushing his fingers into his hair to gently grip the strands. he wants to press his mouth right against the pulse in his neck, but he refrains. barely. ]

But you're welcome to try if you think you can.
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 12:20 am (UTC)(link)
Exhaust you to death, [ he corrects, relaxing a little more now than when this entire conversation had began. ] There's a difference.

[ but dorian mentions that, and larus is abruptly aware that his fangs seem heavy in his mouth. ]

Does that include stamina? I could almost feel how tired you were when we made it back here.
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ maybe it's not a good topic to discuss considering the way he's beginning to feel—guilt only part of it. larus is quiet as he takes all of it in and realizes now how dangerous a thing that particular knowledge is, especially if other vampires or creatures requiring blood learn of it. he frowns, trailing his fingers down to the back of dorian's neck. ]

I'll be more careful next time. [ a silent promise, and he presses into his skin, changing the subject again. ] Although, I can't say I'm not interested in learning some of your other limits.

[ he very much means it how it sounds. ]
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ as fascinating as it is, it's not something he can bring himself to do just to see it happen. he's witnessed it on other vampires, on himself, and while it's interesting because dorian is not undead as far as he's aware, larus is more intrigued by other things. he takes his hand, but rather than apply pressure or bruise him in a way he knows he easily could, he brings it to his mouth for a kiss. he presses his lips to the palm, the wrist.

his heartbeat is strong, and larus listens to it as he looks at him. ]


I said I wouldn't hurt you, and I especially won't do it intentionally. I'll take your word for it and leave it at that. [ there's something beautiful in the fragility of people, a reminder he doesn't always have to feel so monstrous. ] You should take more care than you do.

[ never mind he's done and will do equally foolish things, like return to the down at some point. ]
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ there could be something more in those words, but larus isn't certain how to process it or how to begin understanding it. he hasn't had much time to think about dorian alone specifically when it's always been a situation or their current circumstances. such a thing implies a sort of trust he wants to hold onto though, leaning to rest his forehead against the hand he holds. everything else is muted to him but this and the hypnotic thrum of dorian's pulse. ]

Are you trying to tempt me? [ since that's what it feels like too. ]
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 08:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ he'd already known the answer to his own question, but he's not exactly prepared for the one dorian asks in return, abruptly aware of the placement of his hands even as he tilts his head back to look at him. why is it so easy to nearly lose himself when he's with someone else? or, more specifically, when he's with him? other people don't interest him nearly as much. ]

It reminds me that you're alive, [ he settles on after a few moments, smoothing his thumb over dorian's wrist before freeing his hand. rather than skirt away from the topic, he feels the need to elaborate. ] Not that you aren't. I can hear your heart beating without even thinking about it. It's more – I don't know. A conscious effort to keep my teeth where they should be and not take what isn't mine.

[ which is a different sort of reminder, always aware of that primal instinct to bite and claim but desperate to prove that he has control over something he never wanted in the first place. ]
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I wouldn't call it a temptation.

[ how else is he supposed to explain it? there's also something nice about the rhythm of it, the warmth that comes from the skin, and maybe a lot of it does come from the fact he misses having a pulse. he takes a moment to think about it, watching dorian before slowing shifting his shoulders in some vague shrug. if he'd thought about it extensively, maybe he would have been able to give a proper answer. ]

Like I said, it's a reminder. And I guess I just like doing it.

[ there. one thing he admits to liking, which probably doesn't say much at all. ]
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-13 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he's not surprised that dorian had known other vampires, but there's something almost bittersweet about the way he speaks of his friend, wanting to ask but deciding not to pry. he likes when information is given freely, and he's certain, with time, dorian will tell him more if he wants to. ]

It doesn't bother me. Other things do, but not that. [ maybe that makes him strange. he doesn't know; it's not like he converses much with other vampires. ] Each heartbeat is different, [ he continues, touching his fingertips to dorian's chin. ] and you can tell so much just from listening to it. Someone's fears, their desires. If they're young, old, sick – so, yes, maybe it does fill the silence sometimes.

[ his hand trails down the line of dorian's throat. ]

I could pick yours out of a crowd. [ and softly: ] It sounds like your friend had more to figure out.
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[personal profile] mislay 2022-04-14 09:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ something so small feels incredibly complicated to him. mostly because he doesn't actually know dorian's friend or the circumstances around his creation, what drove him to such dislike. perhaps it could be that larus is still young for a vampire, but he's met a plethora of others in varying shades of hatred—towards themselves, towards humanity. it's a lonely, envious sort of long life, more a curse than anything else, and sometimes, he wishes to let go of it all. but those moments are exceedingly rare and brought upon by great duress.

his fingers trace along the shape of dorian's collarbone, pushing fabric aside to expose more skin. ]


Everything is always what you make it. [ which sounds incredibly pragmatic of him. ] Finding purpose isn't easy, but it's the same with humans too. Sometimes, you fail to escape the thought there's nothing else.

[ but there's always something. always. of course, a lot of larus' motives back home where fueled by survival and spite, a different sort of hatred directed at someone else rather than himself. he could hate what he is for eternity, but he couldn't hate himself. not without something else behind it. ]

I don't want to be like that.

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