He narrows his eyes at the other man. "Don't put words in my mouth or assume anything about what I want. You don't get that in this situation."
Sending Sin away wouldn't solve the problems they have that have been hiding beneath the surface of their relationship since they found each other again. It would make it easier to deal with them, but nothing is fixed by causing a scene or scandal. Toby wishes she had never existed in his world, but that's impossible. Now he's just dealing with the fallout of being stuck in yet another shitty, impossible situation where he has to fight the multiverse itself for the slightest bit of happiness or contentment.
Sin going would make things so much easier for him, but when the fuck has the multiverse cared about him or what he wants?
"I don't want to lose you, now or ever." That much is easy to admit. Toby takes a deep breath to calm himself and rubs at the corner of his eyes with the back of his hand. "I understand what she means to you and what she did for you. I'm grateful she was there when you needed someone." And so angry that he wasn't there, that he didn't know he could be there. He knows that sorrow and despair, and he's glad his soulmate had an anchor where he didn't.
"You need to figure out what you want, Dorian. I can't decide that for you." Can't make the man decide if he's willing to fight for Sin to keep himself open to whatever it is she brings to him. The vampire rubs his eyes again before dropping his gaze to the floor and stuffing his hands in his pockets to search for something he can smoke or fidget with before he starts pacing.
"I cannot lose you," he murmurs after a slightly too long silence. "Not again. I just--" A beat as he chokes on a breath. "I just don't know how to share you with someone who means as much to you as me."
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Sending Sin away wouldn't solve the problems they have that have been hiding beneath the surface of their relationship since they found each other again. It would make it easier to deal with them, but nothing is fixed by causing a scene or scandal. Toby wishes she had never existed in his world, but that's impossible. Now he's just dealing with the fallout of being stuck in yet another shitty, impossible situation where he has to fight the multiverse itself for the slightest bit of happiness or contentment.
Sin going would make things so much easier for him, but when the fuck has the multiverse cared about him or what he wants?
"I don't want to lose you, now or ever." That much is easy to admit. Toby takes a deep breath to calm himself and rubs at the corner of his eyes with the back of his hand. "I understand what she means to you and what she did for you. I'm grateful she was there when you needed someone." And so angry that he wasn't there, that he didn't know he could be there. He knows that sorrow and despair, and he's glad his soulmate had an anchor where he didn't.
"You need to figure out what you want, Dorian. I can't decide that for you." Can't make the man decide if he's willing to fight for Sin to keep himself open to whatever it is she brings to him. The vampire rubs his eyes again before dropping his gaze to the floor and stuffing his hands in his pockets to search for something he can smoke or fidget with before he starts pacing.
"I cannot lose you," he murmurs after a slightly too long silence. "Not again. I just--" A beat as he chokes on a breath. "I just don't know how to share you with someone who means as much to you as me."